Bored+Lonely= why I hate summer

You lose some and you lose some. I really wish that I didn't have this in my head. Why do I have to always go and ruin things. I am trying to keep it only ruined for me and not everyone else, but, as they say, misery loves company. I wish these next four years would just fly by. Or better, not come at all. Before April 22 I was just a bundle of happiness. Then all these doubts entered my head...

 "good times bad times, you know I've had my share"

Work was kind of boring. Winnie's house was fun though... and interesting. Registered sex offenders are great, so are old yearbooks. That's it, I think. That's all there will ever be...

Work is not bad at all. But it seems like everyone I've talked to so far is not as busy as I am. It's fun being the only girl in an office full of men. Actually, it's kind of weird. But not really because I am a man. Everyone knows that.

I am planning. I just hope I carry through. I've never been more on the edge before than I am now.

Well, only to a point. Frodo the Cat was put down today because of liver failure. He would be five years old this August. Such a beautiful and sweet animal, I feel so terrible. I don't know what else there is to say right now. Perhaps starting work will help alleviate some of these depressing feelings that have come upon me this summer.

Read the last few pages of Return of the King if you care to understand why I titled this. Read the whole damn series actually.

Dear **********,

You have no idea how jealous I am of you. You basically have what I want, you are what I want to be.You better damn well appreciate it because if I didn't love you, I'd hate you.
-Me

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Dear **********,

I love you, there's no getting around that- you have made me so happy. But we could never work, it's hopeless for so many reasons. Maybe this state of blissful ignorance is better. I wish I knew what you thought.
-Me

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Dear ****************,

You hurt me so much and even though I tell you, you just don't get it. You really are a self centered bastard at times and sometimes I wonder why I like you. I wish that you would just one time would show that you cared how I felt. That's all.
-Me

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Dear *************,

I haven't thought about you in a while. That's good, I really could care less about you. Except now I have to because you have to go and do something like that; if I didn't care I'd be a soulless bitch. Why do people I hate have to do this?
-Me

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Dear ****************,

You really need to grow up. You're worse than him. You just make everything harder on me.
-Me

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Dear ***********,

I see right through you and I still haven't completely forgiven you. I know you knew.
-Me

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Dear ************* and ********,

Thanks for always brightening my day.
-Me

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Leave nothing unsaid? Hahaha. Well, I said everything I wanted to. No, who these are addressed to is not as easy as counting asterisks, it's not as obvious as that. Sorry to disappoint.